This is hard.
Here I am, no Facebook profile, feeling a little out of the loop and lonely when it comes to this big cyber-world of social networking, and trying to desperately seek the love and support I need from healthy places. Like Jesus. That Guy can put a smile on my face faster than I can reactivate my Facebook profile. And I can do that all-together too quickly.
Not having a Facebook is not easy. I'm not going to pretend like I don't sign into my husband's account every now and then, just to see what my friends are up to. But I had 800 friends, and Facebook is pretty boring when my husband only has 80.
But you know what? It's been so worth it. I have been spending so much time with my babies. I am present in my life. I am present with the husband. I have had coffee and dinner with some good friends, and it has been so good to just connect outside of Facebook, and really focus on the reality of who they really are.
I feel like I have to put a disclaimer at the end of my blogs nowadays that I am only stating my opinion and that you don't have to agree with it. And I don't like that. I know I am stepping on some toes when I write the words, "Facebook is a cheap excuse for a relationship/friendship. Get off the internet and spend some time with your children/family/God." But you know what? That's really a good thing.
Hear those words, and if they convict you, praise God. I read those words not too long ago and I was deeply convicted. Granted, it was stated a bit more eloquently and was explained a lot better than what I have been doing, but life is crazy right now and I just sorta sit and write whatever comes to mind at this point.
Nobody has to read my blog. I hope you do, because I write so that people can see what my life is about, my family's beliefs and how God has transformed us and taken us from a place of absolute rock-bottom, to a place of peace and healing. I write to express myself, because frankly, I suck at talking to people face-to-face. I'm working on that. Kinda.
Blah. I'm messy. My life is messy. And I am learning how to love myself through it all. I'm learning how to believe that God loves me, and that people aren't really out to get me. If you've read to this point, thank you for giving me 10 minutes of your life. You really didn't have to read all of this. But I'm glad you did. Because now you know a little bit more about me, and why I sneak out of a crowded room too soon.
May you know that God adores you...
(stay tuned for a blog post about my blog. where it will be going. etc.)