Rise n' Shine mamas!...at 5am?!?

     
     Let's just get this out of the way before I get too far- I'm LAZY. Yes, all caps. I can't keep a schedule down to save my ever lovin' life. I love to sit and read and do all the mindless things. I love to sleep. Oh, how I love my soft squishy pillow and cozy warm blankies. When God called me to home school, I looked behind me, sure He called the smarter, more disciplined and organized and more patient and nicer mamas behind me instead. "What? Oh....ME? Seriously?! Me? You're joking right? You're not joking. Crap. Crapcrap. This is not good, God. This is bad. I cant' even brush my teeth every day. I can't blog once a week. I can't do laundry. How am I going to equip my boys to live life and SUCCEED and not end up playing video games 20 hours a day eating Doritos on my COUCH AT 30 YEARS OLD!"

DEEEEEEP breath. 

     I find myself preparing for preschool homeschool, for my almost 5 year old, who just yesterday said, "Mom, I'm ready to read. Teach me. I'm ready." And I just sat there and looked at him and my heart stilled. My fears stilled. My anxious thoughts stilled. He believes in me. He looks at me and he says, "She can teach me. She knows. She is my mom and she is smart enough to teach me to read." And I guess I can teach him how to be nice and be patient and be calm but he's going to have to get in line behind me on that one because I'm still learning as well. Maybe on that we'll take hands and go down that road side-by-side. 
     I cannot get all the things done with the 5 minutes I clear to be productive. It's nearly impossible. Almost. It's amazing what you can get done in the 5 minutes before the husband gets home. But alas, if I am to conquer these wild and ugly beasts in our home called illiteracy and laziness, and climb Mountdirtylaundry, I have to get this lazy behind into high gear. No amount of coffee will magically make me more efficient and more organized. Maybe more manic and psychotic, but that would be hard. And not very effective at teaching homeschool. Highly entertaining, but not very effective.
     So I've joined this Rise and Shine challenge at Abundant Mama. She says this:

We are so busy during the day that it’s really hard to fit it all in. But if you are someone who wants to fit it all in then you have to be willing to put in the hard work and Rise & Shine early.
And sometimes the hard work is dealing with children who rise early with you.
And sometimes the hard work is just devoting yourself to waking up at 4 a.m.
And sometimes the hard work is saying today I am going to just release the expectations I have for nourishing myself and I’m going to just sleep.
There will be mornings when you want to do X, Y and Z and you cannot. Children get sick. Partners have to leave early or out of town. Other life dramas get in the way.
But the true Abundant Mama way isn’t going to let these challenges get you down. They will just make you stronger. And more Abundant.
You can Rise & Shine, Mama.
So just hang with me for a while on this one.
     Doesn't that just make you wanna do everything brave and lovely? That's my word for the year- BRAVE. I've done a lot of brave things this year. I gave up internet in our home for over 6 months. I spoke at several groups in front of a lot of women. I was honest to others about my struggle with depression and tackled it with a new technique called light therapy. I gave up sugar. I gave up eating out. I started running. I said goodbye to my step-dad even though I didn't want to go (more on that another time.) I stepped way out of my comfort zone and made more friends than I've ever had in my life.  I decided to homeschool my boys. Being brave is so different for everyone. A lot of my brave things are just normal everyday life for a majority of women. But for someone living in the shadows of fear and isolation, these are giant leaps to join the rest of you and live a more abundant life. A life that keeps on being braver. 
     So when I saw this challenge I just knew I had to jump on this bandwagon. What in the world is a bandwagon, btw? One sec, let me Google it. 
:: a usually ornate and high wagon for a band of musicians especially in a circus parade
Hmmm...let's try that again. Although I do like that image.
:: a popular party, faction, or cause that attracts growing support —often used in such phrases as jump on the bandwagon
Ahhh. Ok.
     Anyways. Moving on from that nice little rabbit trail. 
     Brave. I was being brave. I'm going to commit to waking up at 5am and get ready for my day, which now includes homeschooling and watching a 5 year old neighbor girl. (4am was way crazy, and let's be honest, I would probably end up sleeping on the couch while my boys ate all the food in our cupboards and turned the bathroom into a public swimming pool.)     
     I loathe the lazy side of me. I really do. I make fun, but it's not funny. Especially when my husband has no underwear for work and has to wear his swimming trunks. Ok, that only happened once. But I only needed to learn that lesson once.
Click on picture to join me!
     I'll have to go to bed at 10pm  and actually get out of bed when that alarm goes off instead of turning it off and rolling back over and snuggling down under those warm...soft...snuggly....I CAN DO THIS. Join me? Let's be brave and do the hard things and transform our lives from anxious, fearful, lazy and tired, to peaceful, courageous, alive and abundant.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 15:13

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  1. that is quite the challenge, but I can totally see the benefits. I've never even tried to wake up early, except in my teen years when had trouble sleeping at night. I had too much on my mind. so I'd wake up early with my mom and go to the gym to work out. it was very refreshing in some ways. and I was tired at night, but I have not woken up early since having children, I've slept until i've had to get up to help them. It would be weird but very nice to have time to think for myself before the kids woke up. I might try it. maybe. :) Becky

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    1. I LOVE waking up early. It's one of those love/hate relationships. But I never ever regret it. I'm really looking forward to more time to spend in the Word and in prayer. It's always so different in the early AM. I don't know why but it is for me =}

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  2. I sat, nearly four years ago, with you in my living room and had no idea until today the courage that sat before me, until today.

    So glad I clicked through from another friend's FB page and took the tIme to read not only this, but your story. And blessed to have met you... If even for that fleeting moment. I needed your courage and that gentle reminder of how great God is more than you will ever know today. <3 ~J Harris~

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